Feelin some kinda way

Im not too sure what my problem is. I've just been kinda [blah] lately. Lately=the past 2 weeks. 4 weeks if u ask my GF. I hate when I get like this tho because its so hard to explain to myself and those around me who have to deal with it. And me being le freak de control, I need to be able to pinpoint precisely what my problem is. That way when someone accuses me of acting like an ass, i can say "well i'm sorry but I've got such & such goin on right now, so i'm gonna be a little off Try me again later." But right now I can't really defend myself cuz i'm not sure what's goin on. Let's check off some symptoms:

Over-emotional- i'm always a cry baby but this is just ridiculous!
Extra sensitive- i'm taking offense to stuff i really shouldnt give two hells about.
Snappy. Even more than usual! Not a good thing.

And no, im not PMSn. Been there done that, its over so dont bring it back 3 weeks sooner than when its suppose to be here, thanks. So what's my diagnosis? I need to know when i'll be snapping out of it & my gf would greatly appreciate it also.

Just thinking...randomness as usual

Blogging has become a staple of my writing repetoire. I really enjoy being able to log in and type away to my hearts content about anything. Literally. If I wanted to post about the shitty symptoms of irritable bowel syndrome, I could. [I do not have IBS, im jus sayin] If I wanted to start an X-rated pornicopia erotica blog, I could. [Hmm...] The point is, it's great to be able to write and write and write & on occasions get great feedback from people who actually take the time to read my stuff. It's great. That's all I wanted to say.

Check out two of the most adorable babies ever, my Godson Amauri (his 1st bday is on May 7th) and my friends baby whom i love soooooo much, Elijah (his 1st bday was March 15)

Amauri

Eli

A few matters of concern

It's monday and y'all dont even need a warning. Stay tuned for the trickery.

*1st things 1st, I had a nice wkend. The concert went great. We sang rather well from what I was told. I got to meet, chit chat and take pics with Kenny Latimore. (Y'all remember him right?) That man knows he can sing his ass off. Of course he sang his infamous "For You". Video soon to come! Did nothing on Sunday besides wash my hair and ran a few errands. Got a lil sidetracked at the mexican grcery store because...well its a mexican grocery store and my Spanish is dustier than what I wanted to admit. I was like ummmm YO NO SE. But I got it together eventually & left out with my tortillas, pollo de rostizado, y queso :-)

* Now onto to a few other things.

Am I the only grown person besides my GF who watches MTVs Taking the Stage?

I love this freakin show. I love the fact that these kids are working so hard to pursue their dreams of dancing or singing profesionally. (Hell i just figured out what i wanna do with life...kinda) Its set at Nick Lachey's (u know the 90 degrees guy) creative & performing arts highschool in Cincinnati, and it showcases the above 5 students who are all super talented in their own ways.From left to right, Shaakira, Malik, Jasmine, Tyler & Mia. I think all 5 of them are great performers, and Mia is one singin ass white girl who is gonna blow up real soon. Love her voice. So yeah, i'm into this lil show but I have one problem:

Someone needs to tell a few of these kids that shit really need not be so complicated in high school! Yeah, people break up and make up, hook up, lie, cheat steal and everything else in HS but u just deal with it and move the hell on. You're only 18 if that! Trust u have the rest of your life to stress over the bullshit and drama. Jasmine & Tyler lawd hammercy. They're caught up in this overly emotional, awkward "relationship" that has lasted ohhh about 3 months. Tyler went and kissed Mia at some party and Jasmine's life ended. Like literally she hit a brick wall and crumbled. Now this chick wants to be "the first premier ballerina of my generation" (her words) and she's really really good. But then here came slick ass Tyler poppin and lockin all over the place & snatched all her lil focus right on up. She flubbed her Julliard audition cuz her mind was too sidetracked by Tyler's sudden case of Jungle Fever. Come on now. I know I thought I was grown in high school too but i'll be damned if a relationship stopped me from getting into my college of choice! Hell to the no. Good bye Tyler, you cute and all but hun u gots ta go. And Mia...

Now I liked Mia...at first. She had a mature air about her that gave her that sophisticated artsy vibe, & i told u she can really sing. Kinda like Joss Stone met Norah Jones who turned around and had a baby with Adele. She was cool. But then she let Tyler fuck up her lil world too! WTF? They treatin this boy like he's Chris Brown! Ok kinda harsh. Scratch that. Like he's Usher or sumthin! So now Mia done went and bumped her head on Tyler's nuts (lol) and now she got Jasmine hatin her, Tyler confused as all hell as to who he wants to be with, and all she sayin is that "I didnt really know what I was doin cuz my boyfriend just broke up with me and im so confused and hurt and you know the whole rebound thing..."

Girl boo. You're 17!!!! You better rebound that damn guitar and keep singin so u can get a record contract and get your ass outta Cincinnati! Got no damn time for Tylers fuckery. Get on somewhere. These young girls these days! geez.

Okay movin right along from MTV to BET.

Sundays Best! Love this show too & if any of u are following this contest, you already know the names (From top to bottom)Jessica Reedy, Latice Crawford and Y'anna Crawley. They were the 3 remaining contestants this past Sunday. Now its down to Jessica and Y'anna. Im tellin u, these 3 women are BAD. Latice has that throaty, strong Whitney Houstonesque (before the crack) voice, Y'anna is one of those take you to church, sang u under the pew & then put yo a** to sleep voices, & Jessica...whew lawd. I am so into her vocals. Shes got this craazy range that digs deep inside to the pit of her soul, and such immaculate control....its bananas. This season's competition is fierce and I couldnt be paid enough to have eliminated either of these women. Now that its down to the final 2 tho, imma have to roll with Jessica. I could listen to her all day & nite. Her voice is so sultry and flawlessly silky smooth. I really want her and Latice both to come out to the bay and play Yoshi's. (a jazz club in oakland for those of yall who arent in the know) I would be there front & center, sippin on my two drink minimum purchase. lol. Seriously tho, all 3 of these ladies make me wanna do better. I can sing but mannn i need to work on a few things so i can step my game up. They have really inspired me.

*steppin to the mic* mi mi mi mi miiii

Yeah imma work on that :-)

Friday in a flash!

It seems like these Friday Flash posts are comng quicker and quicker. Definitely a good thing.

* Not only is today Friday but yesterday was pay day!!!

But the money is pretty much already spent so no lap of luxury parties goin on over here. Moving on.

*In other news, this weekend is gonna be hella busy. I've got an event to attend for school with my gf tonite in San Fran, I have a scholarship ceremony tomorrow afternoon, my choir's big concert is tomorrow night, going to an Omar Tyree workshop/book signing on Sunday and I have to go shopping for my godsons bday. I already need a drink.

* I also need another vacation to go along with that drink.

* Its gonna rain tonight. Im okay with it seeing as after May it's gonna feel like the pits of hell for the next 4 months.

* I haven't worked on writing my book or on any poetry in a long time and it's starting to eat away at me. This sucks. Writer's block is a bitch & i hate it.

* I'm ready to move on to the next phase of my life. Unfortunately i'm pretty sure I have at least 3 more yrs to go.

* Im wondering why my other blog has less followers but averages way more comments than this one?? Hmmmm....

I think that's about it. You know i'll come back if there's more.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND PEOPLE!